Monthly Archives: February 2009

असह्य यथार्थ

आज दिनभरी नै बिसन्चो महशुस गरिरहें दिउँसो 12 बजेतिर दिनेश दाईले ‘हिंड जाउँ घुमेर आउँ’ भन्नुभो पि.एन. क्याम्पसको डिलतिर गयौं धेरैबेर बसियो त्यहाँ फोटो पनि खिचियो धेरै कुरा भए दिनेश दाईसँग हुन त दाजु-भाई हामी यसरी सँगै घुम्न विरलै निस्कन्छौं दाईले मलाई साथ लिएर हिंड्न कहिल्यै रुचाउनुभएन कुरा गर्ने क्रममा सुख-दु:खका कुराहरु पनि भए मेरो अवस्थाप्रति दिनेश दाईको सहानुभुति रहेको मैले पाएँ र, मैले यो पनि भनिदिएँ कि ‘’त्यो’’ नै मेरो जीवनको पहिलो र अन्तिम प्रेम थियो दाईले कुनै प्रतिक्रिया दिनुभएन अनि पछि बगरको एक रेष्टुरेन्टमा कोकोकोला खाएर हामी फर्कियौं


आजको अनुभव मलाई साँच्चै अनौठो लाग्यो दाईले मलाई पहिला कहिल्यै त्यसरी घुम्न जानको लागि आग्रह गर्नुभएको थिएन र म आँफैलाई पनि अप्ठयारो लाग्छ, दिनेश दाईसँग हिंड्न अब त एक्लै हिंड्ने बानी परिसकेको छ, एक्लै क्याम्पस जाँदा जाँदा

अहिले भर्खर उसले पनि ब्लग लेख्न थालेको थाहा पाएँ साँच्चै त्यसले ब्लग लेख्यो आज, नितान्त पहिलो ; मेरो बारेमा, हाम्रो विगतको सम्बन्धको बारेमा म वास्तवमै चिच्याएँ जब मैले त्यो थाहा पाएँ, खुसीले आँखा रसाए ‘’त्यो‘’ मेरो जीवन नै हो, वास्तवमा
मैले कतिचोटी दोहोर्र्याएँ होला, त्यसको त्यो पहिलो ब्लग, म आँफैलाई थाहा
छैन !!! हे ईश्वर, त्यसलाई पढ्न पाउँदा म आँफैलाई भाग्यमानी ठान्दछु
म कति खुशी छु आज, अहिले ! तर मलाई थाहा छ, यो मेरो खुशी धेरैबेर रहने छैन जब मलाई त्यसले सँधैको लागि त्यागेको थाहा हुन्छ, म फेरि टुक्रा-टुक्रा हुनेछु मेरो नियति आँफैलाई आँफैप्रति दया लाग्छ

झुठो संसार

अनलाईन  ‘अनलाईन’नै  हुँदो  रहेछ,  झुठो,  कपटपुर्ण र  अवास्तविक ।

Been Antsy

She already despised me. But I’m still holding a very faint hope of her possible return to my life again. It might not be practicable for me to wait her anymore after being despised to this much. But…. it’s matter of love and affection. I do love her then how could I forsake her so easily?

It’s been so long that I’ve not seen her email (It must have been weeks). Let’s not speak about live chat, I’ve not even meet (not even seen) her online for approx. 70 days after ‘the tragedy’. Dunno if she has blocked me online. I cried copiously, much..still am…I wish no one would suffer this kind of agonizing incident. No one, not even those who don’t love.

I hope, she is fine there and doing her study well.

The Sweatest Day

Yesterday, I had visited PN campus to hear Arjun Narsingh KC, spokesman and co-general secretary of Nepali Congress who was due to address a mass meeting organized to welcome freshmen in PN campus. Day was sunny and little bit hot as before and we both sweated copiously when hunkering down on dried ground to listen the politician as late as till 5:30 pm. Actually I had gone there all alone but later found a junior friend and we spent the rest hours together. I felt strongly the need of umbrella. The sun has gone really intolerable in these days.

The old politician spoke at the end of the program, that’s why we had to stay there until the function ends. It was really tiresome to spend such lengthy hours waiting him to speak his mind and heart out about the current political situation and problems the educational institutions mainly TU has been facing. And, the musical performance performed for several times didn’t really please me. Actually I resented it. The way they perform, I just hate. But I liked Ramji Khaand’s folk performance in  his own live voice : ‘‘Deurali ko bhatti pasal”. Students were producing dusts all around the ground dancing and enjoying with him that made the entire surrounding environment completely hazy for some minutes. I kept covering my face with palms, protecting dusts.

KC gave his speech in his usual tone for more than half an hour. Also spoke in the program were Pradeep Paudel (President of NSU), Gagan Thapa (CA Member), Yagya Bahadur Thapa (President of NC Kaski) , Shukraraj Sharma (Leader of NC), Padam Giri (President of FSU,PN) etc.

All invited speakers spent their time to blame each other, mostly Maoists. Ironically, the function was organised to welcome new students but none of them felt they should speak at least some words welcome new students! nor did they talk about the problems TU has been facing. They all kept themselves busy with political damning and rhetoric against each-other. It s*cked.

Still In Centre!

The recent visit of King Gyanendra to India has sparked a lot of speculations, debates and suspicions and has gained much media coverage too. It proves, the monarch is still in centre of Nepali politics and so-called ”people’s representatives” despite having claimed ‘enormous’ people support, are still afraid of the king (for no reasons!).

Long live the King and Queen!!!


(The recent photo of the king at Tribhuvan International Airport prior to India visit)